aarrrgh

last night i arranged the paintings i've done along the walls of our apartment. in my desire to finish the whole set, i haven't seen all of it together until last night. it's not all that bad, but i decided to do some changes in tonal value to some of the 'finished' paintings. am also thinking of totally redoing one of it. then again, maybe i'll just let it go as it is. as much as possible, i try to think thru my paintings before hand - the layout, the colors, and such. but i admit that all of these changes during the act of painting. and as much as i enjoy losing myself on the process of coaxing the colors along the canvas, i also need to step back after awhile and ask myself if i am happy with the result.

some weeks ago, a friend ask me if we should pray for the success of my exhibit. i told him sure, please pray for the exhibit. but even up to now ( two months before the event ) i still don't know what it means for an exhibit to be called a 'success'. if 'success' means having all my paintings sold, well, i would rather keep them. hmmm...i guess to enjoy the act of painting and being happy with the result is success enough for me. ha,ha, am not going zen or anything about it. i admit that i also enjoy gathering my friends in one place and showing them my works.

sounds like am rambling on this blog entry. maybe i need a break from the office, spend my time sitting on some coffee shop or park bench and dream...zzzz.


greenbelt park.